Is pain ever a good thing ?

When I am down , I write , no thought , no real sense of purpose , I just write how my soul is feeling at that exact moment in time . 

The following piece was my raw emotions put to paper . 

I have not posted much , life has been crazy and I have not been in crisis emotionally .

It would seem when my soul is damaged , I usually write what my heart tells me to write .

The following is one of those times , no planning , not even knowing what word I will write next , it just happens , raw feelings , my feelings .

Misery loves company , well I would not wish anxiety and depression on anyone .

If you find this helpful , please comment as I would truly love to hear what others say .

Be well and take care until the next time , Dreamer 

Anxious Moments

By

Gary S. Ingerson

Maybe this is you …

Maybe you know this …

Maybe you can relate … 

Or just maybe you can learn.

So how does anxiety really affect ones life ? 

Well , a lot , and the suffering is neverending .

Just as I have lived this , I share this .

I have been emotionally abused most of my life in one way or another and here is the result .

Imagine yourself on an island and are alone . You will learn how to find food and water , and you will learn how to shelter yourself . 

You have done this for decades and more . 

How did it start ?

Not really sure , but I can say it was a time long before I learned how to be independent . 

That should be a good thing , independence , right ? 

Sometimes , other times it is a lonely path .

So I have found many ways to do many things alone . 

My family has passed , friends have left , lives have changed . 

The one thing that has not changed is anxiety , it is unrelenting and unyielding .

There comes an obstacle that you just can not find a way to solve , you try for days , weeks and still nothing comes to mind to resolve this issue . 

Against all of your anxious thoughts you do the one thing you never want do to , you ask for help .

Knowing full well that that help might evaporate and never come to pass , but that obstacle requires help , you need help and against all thoughts of not asking — you ask , you anxiously asked .

An answer is given , “ sure I will help , just let me know “ .

Has a friend finally been found and just another cruel trick being played on an anxious mind . 

So your obstacle is finally going to be resolved , finality at last is in sight .

You ask for help , a time is requested and a time offered .

However when that time comes , there is no-one around , no help still . 

Now that anxious moment has turned to depression and the fear of depression leads to more anxious moments . All this time an obstacle needs to be remedied , but is like most , un-finished .

This was not just a one time thing , this is my life , time and time again I am left to wonder what I did wrong and why I acted the way I did . 

I asked for help …

Now you know as much as I do . If this is you or if you can relate , then …

Welcome home my darling friend , whoever you are , you have a friend ,

My thoughts can be rested at last in knowing I am not alone . 

Share if you think this work can benefit another wounded soul .

G.S. Ingerson

May 29th - 2025 ©